Friday, September 10

My September 9-11.

So here's the obligatory 9-11 post. I decided to save you the hassle of reliving the moment again, like I'm sure you'll have to a hundred times today anyways.

I wrote a 3 page post about today. 3 pages. I wrote it over the course of the week at work. It was a detailed account of what I had done that day. It was emotional, innocent and insightful. I'm very proud of it, but I decided not to stoop to that level. I tore it up 5 minutes ago, like I've done with so many of my writings. If you're curious as to what it was I was doing that day, here's a stripped-down version:

I was 19, and working at the Larsen Co-Op. We saw the attacks on the television in the auto repair waiting room. Some people cried, others just left. Celia had spent the day home from school because she was sick, so she slept through most of it. That night, I went to get gas for my car, and saw a line going down the street from the Co-Op. I went in and helped my manager check people out until we ran out of gas. I then went home, where I didn't sleep for 2 days. The End.

We were all effected by this, and there's no need for me to kick it around. I've been thinking about it for a week now, and I don't need to mourn another day.

I need to fight.



Here are just 10 facts:

1. The events of September 11 could have been prevented.
2. George W Bush is using the events of September 11 to his political gain this election year.
3. George W Bush is telling people not to focus on the economy, and to focus more on the war in Iraq, which is responsible for the deaths of over a thousand US soldiers.
4. The war in Iraq has nothing to do with September 11.
5. There are no ties between Iraq and the terrorists who perpetuated the attacks.
6. George W Bush came into office with the war in Iraq in mind. In 2000, he referred to himself as a "war president".
7. George W Bush is trying to convince people that the state of the economy doesn't matter until he has captured all of the terrorists in the world.
8. George W Bush also said that he "wasn't too worried" about Osama Bin Laden, and was not actively pursuing him.
9. In a recent interview, George W Bush said he "couldn't think of 1 mistake he has made while in office".
10. I want to punch George W Bush right in the ballbag.

Since George W Bush took office, we have lost at least four thousand innocent lives. Do you know what four thousand looks like? Here's an idea:

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Every one of those is an innocent dead body. Or better yet, imagine if the entire combined populations of Winneconne, Larsen and Winchester just dropped dead. Then add a few hundred more. Add this to the almost 13,000 people we've killed in Iraq, and you've got a whole lot of blood on your hands. I had nothing to do with it, and I still couldn't sleep for days. I wonder how the President feels about being responsible for that many fresh graves. I wonder if he thinks at all about it. The notion that he's using this as a PLATFORM for his campaign is the lowest thing I've ever seen a person do. It's amazing that a man can make so many mistakes, seeing as how he's basically taking all of his orders from Jesus, or at least that's what he tells everyone.



He must be talking about a different Jesus, because the Jesus I know wouldn't stand for this shit for a second. He'd go off on this heathen Old Testament-style. Well, maybe not Jesus, but I know for sure that his Dad would. Bring on the locusts! We deserve nothing less.

Frankly, I don't know what I'm driving at anymore. I'm just angry, and I wish I had some way to turn it into something positive today. I can't. Nobody can. We happen to be living in a nation that's more messed up right now than it's been in a long time.

3 years ago today, the world changed, like it or not. We lost a lot of things that we had taken for granted, and had many more stolen from us. It doesn't have to be that way. Here's just a few things you can do that can make a huge difference:

1. Register to vote, for God's sake! It takes a minute, and you can do it on Yahoo.
2. Vote!
3. Look for your news and information, don't let it come to you through the television. Find it as unfiltered as you can get it. I recommend the BBC, Disinformation and Communist Dance Party.
4. Have you registered to vote yet?

The best part about 9/11 was the way that people acted towards each other for the first week. There was a unity nobody had ever seen before. It shouldn't take something horrible to get us all on the same page. I'm old enough to realize that complete unity is impossible, but it still doesn't mean you should be an ass. This is a great country. I can say whatever I want here, it can be read by a billion people, and I'm not afraid the Government will saw my hands off. We need to make sure it stays this way. It's closer to changing than you think.

People always tell me, "I don't understand Politics, so I just ignore it." You don't need to understand Politics to realize that something is seriously going wrong. Find a candidate that agrees with what you believe in, and do what you can to make sure they get into office. Simple as that. There's no more room or time to be ignorant.

As jaded as I was about it then, I can say with certainty that September 11, 2001 was one of the single worst days of my entire life.

I'm going to do something about it.

Monday, September 6

Stairs Make A Man Mean.



We're moving!

Slowly but surely, we're transferring everything we own from one building to another. We've been fighting, sweating, swearing, breaking things, cutting our arms to shreds, drinking plenty of fluids and fighting some more. On the contrary, the notion of doing it on our own justifies this Labor Day Weekend nightmare. We're getting there though, and will have it done by the end of the month.

I'm well accustomed to moving. Since the age of 9, I've been bouncing around from house to house, scattering possessions and pitching heirlooms into the trash. When you have to load and unload boxes of things you never knew you had, you start to wonder why you have it in the first place. Make no mistake about it, as much as I attempt to live lightly, I own a lot of crap. We've been looking forward to this weekend for such a long time, as we were going to buckle down and kick some moving ass.

But....man.


(Image sized down to lessen the full blow of the haggardness.)

I'm beat.

It's 90 without the humidity, the steps are 7 inches wide, and FOR THE LOVE OF CRAP, WHY DO WE OWN SO MANY HEAVY THINGS! From now on, we buy NOTHING that weighs more than 18 pounds. I'm a reasonable guy, but I've got to set some ground rules, Goddammit. We've already put a significant gouge in the wall. I have blisters. A treadmill fell on my pinkie toe. I can't wait to finish moving, but Celia might be living there by herself while I'm up in traction.

(Moving without trucks
Makes a couple say bad things
Like, "I hate to move".)

Enough of this moving business, I've got other things to focus on this week. Like not losing my job. The Wisconsin Department of Regulation and Licensing may not know it yet, but they're putting a dangerously underqualified man in charge for the next 4 days. (Thank you very much, Kim!) Preparing to run the front desk is similar to the night before Christmas, only with more vomiting. I can't eat, can't sleep, can't think about anything rational. My crippling fear of failure, mixed with my crippling failure success rate, means that I will lose about 15 pounds by Friday. I'm going to be okay though. I can always look forward to coming home and relaxing in my half-empty, torn up home for a minute or 2, before I start moving things again.

It's quarter to 9, and I'm going to bed.